Simple fixes 

Cman discovers the power of simple. With a few bobby pins he is saved from despair. A small repair saves him from the fall. The beauty of small. The sound of being still. The motion of silence. Night after night he sleeps well. He breathes. He rests. He grows. He knows what he has never known. He needs very little. The world needs no superhero. His world is. Perfect. His strength is his weakness. His power has come from the parts Him that were weak. That are weak. His broken heart was not ever broken. It was open. It was broke open. It was not made to feel less. It was opened and felt more. His feelings made him strong. His sensitivity made him super. His fragility gave him a special ability. His humanity was revealed and it was gentle. It was loving. Giving. It was real. Has purpose. Is in itself self evident. Being. It is enough. Human being. Now that he could breathe while slept. Now that he woke from sleep and not from the dead. He woke to life not dread. He woke with Insight. Without fright. Pondering the night. Dreamed. Dreaming. Alive. CPAPman! 

Self aware. Shameless. Blameless. Able to think. Able to plan. Comfortably present. Mindful. In the moment. The past, future and now all here in the present. A gift. A joy. Freedom. Making sense. Find meaning. Knowing. Empowered. Waiting. Patient. Keeping the peace. Our hero is ready. Ready to act. Able to give. Like never before CPAPman is ready. The Cman lives!

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