Forgiving others is easy. It is not a super-power. I learned early in life the freedom you earn by forgiving those who have wronged you. They do not even have to know. When you forgive someone in your heart it lifts your soul. Forgiveness is a gift you give yourself. You are released from the burden someone else has placed on you. You put it down. You let it go. You walk away. It's very powerful. Makes you want to share it. The freedom. I've learned you can not offer forgiveness. It must be a request. If not sought it is an insult. It is better to ask for it. Asking the offender for forgiveness is a difficult thing to do. Goes against human nature. Touching the Divine is never easy. When you give a gift and it is refused the gift stays with the giver. When you are free and you offer freedom your gift need not be appreciated to have value. My new Superpower is the ability to forgive myself. I have wronged myself in so many ways. I have failed too many times to count. But the f...
As I slept I slowly died. Not all the way, but die I did. Every night hypoxia would take me. I would float in deep sleep dreaming with severe apnea choking away my life. Deeper sleep meant death so my nervous system coped with this threat by nightmare. Scaring me out of the deepest levels of sleep. Shocking me awake. Over and over into the night. Never really asleep never really awake. Snoring and gasping, coughing and wheezing, rolling and dreaming, talking and walking night after night, year after year. Last to bed first to wake. A few hours a night none of it good. When things got bad I wrote about it. It appears my dreams were trying to tell me something. You are dying. Wake up. Literally you are dying while you sleep and you don't even know it. I lived in black and white. When I woke as CPAPman I could see every color in the world. It was a shock to have been so blind for so long and to have the lights turned on to all the beauty of the world. Colors so rich and deep I fel...
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